An answer to anger and doubt.

Boy, sometimes I wish G-d weren't so invisible. That he were available to me in flesh and bone at any time of day. I have questions I need answered but no available response seems to satisfy. I’ve experienced enough of G-d in my personal life to justify my faith, so why do I feel so disconnected? I can’t go back to the way I used to live, but at the same time I wish I could experience God in such a way that my questions would just melt away. At my darkest hour it was interesting to me to think that God will exist and continue to exist whether or not I chose to follow him. God is not confined to my emotional state. He doesn't leave when I'm fighting my demons and show up after I'm done figuring things out. He is always present.

The following verse gave me a better perspective on my trial. My faith in Christ is cemented in the hope that there is much more meaning in this life than meets the eye.

Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! But when full understanding comes, these partial things will become useless.
When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely. 1 Corinthians 13:9-12, NLT