The following is the intro from a blogsite I stumbled across that I am sure will bless you as it did me. This is the God we serve:
In the wee hours of the morning on June 16, 2006 ... I had planned on committing suicide ... for a myriad of different reasons.
I was going to shoot myself in the head at the very location I'd repeatedly been molested as a child ... a cliff overlooking the Kankakee river located in the Kankakee River State Park (Illinois), a rather ironic place of beauty for such a horrendous crime to have continually taken place.
Read the rest here: jesusandtheathiest.blogspot.com
Props to Forwardthought for the findings.